Wow, just wow. I want to personally thank alerted, nounousa and ladyofrohan439 very very very very much for gifting me with paid lj time. You have no idea how much it meant to me. I literally teared up. ♥♥♥♥♥♥

And I'll tell you why it's very important to me to keep my paid time. A month or so before my mom died (in '05) she let me buy paid time for my lj for the very first time, because she knew how badly I wanted it and knew it would make me happy. Since then I've been trying to keep my lj paid, I guess as a sort of personal tradition between me and my mom. So when I found out my time was ending next week, I got really depressed over it, hence the entry about it.

But wow, I honestly really didn't expect to get anything and was prepared to beg my aunt for the money, but you guys .. you guys are so awesome. Even just writing this up is making me all teary. ♥♥♥♥♥♥

 

Dear Mom,

Happy Mother's Day.

I miss you, and I love you.

Love always, Mistee

Title: Silk Prompt (Untitled)
Pairing: NaruSasu
Rating: NC-17
Words: 1,678

Notes: Pretty much straight pwp here folks. My friend gave me a prompt back when I had no internet (shows how long it takes to get me writing, eh?) and I finally finished it. I haven't written in awhile, so I apologize beforehand for the suckage. Thanks. ♥

( He was vaguely aware Naruto was probably trying to do something .. romantic )

I just realized that close to a week from now I will no longer have a paid account and will lose my non-ad-ness (since you can't have basic anymore, only paid or plus), no editing of comment features and no lots of icons. Guess I'll have to down size now. =\

And what sucks even more is that I do not have the money to pay for it for another year. I don't even have -any- money at -all- of my own. And we just don't have the extra funds for me to bug my aunt for the money to pay for it.

I really envy you guys who can just buy whatever you want whenever you want, or have friends that'll just buy you shit whenever. I really do.

And fuck all if this just doesn't depress me even further with everything else going on.

Thanks, life, thanks. You really know how to fuck a gal over, don't you?

This is exactly the kind of day I am having. IM at your own will (if you're lucky I'll be napping and therefor not likely to kill you when I wake up).

I got bored and took a screencap of my desktop to show my wallpaper and icons and whatnot. Feel free to see what I stare at all day.


preview - click to view

My aunt called my uncle today to get an update on my grandpa.

The doctor(s) are giving him about 3 months without treatment, 6 months with. But right now he gets so weak just from going to his dialysis 2 times a week, they don't think he'd be able to do the treatment too. But I guess they're going to give him a treatment tomorrow to see how he handles it.

It might even be less than three months, since they're not even sure how long he's had it. I just hope it's not soon. *sighs*

~ Naruto Yaoi Friending Meme ~

That I ganked from Kage. I don't usually do these but I thought eh what the hell, why not.

On a more sobering subject, I found out last night that my grandpa has Cancer in his lung and his bones. Not sure if it's both lungs or all his bones, but that's all we know so far.

Also, this news has nothing to do with my previous anger post -- that was a completely different matter.

I have the urge to stab something.

Hard.

With a very pointy object.

Preferably with a long serrated knife.

Life

We has internets now! It's wireless so it does go out occasionally, but I just have to get the signal back as opposed to being out of internet for god knows how long when it decides to come back. I'm not bitching if I have to move the laptop to get it back in order to be online.

Everything is good thus far and I am enoying myself. Would love some mail though *hinthint* <3

We might go to the beach today! =D

Anyways, ( here's how the trip down here went )

Fandom

1. sdlkjsdkfsdf Kyou Kara Maou 3rd season! YES. I've seen the first 3 eps already and I know I'm gonna love it.
2. sdlkjsdkfsdf xxxHolic: Kei 2nd season! YES. klsdfsd I've waited for this! And now it's here! And I can watch it online! The spider arc and Kohane arc are my favourite arcs in the series so far. I can't wait to see it all animated.
3. sldkfsdfsdkf New Avatar season this year! Final season too, I think? I SQUEE for joy! I can't wait until July! By then we should have FAST CABLE INTERNET! And maybe I can download them! We'll have to see.
4. I've watched 9 eps of Code Geass so far and .. I kind of like it even though I'm not a huge fan of mecha
5. I'm behind on Naruto, D.Gray-man and Bleach though, since I'd have to watch them online. Will do that soon.
6. Almost finished with the KKM OVAs, just need to watch 4 and 5 and I'll be done.
7. Seriously, where the fuck are the last two eps of Shounen Onmyouji? I mean seriously, WTF they've subbed almost a whole other series but haven't fucking finished S-O? What the shit? Ugh, more waiting.
8. I still have not watched any TTGL. I don't know if I will, to be honest. I just can't seem to get into it again.

9. Naruto Manga: WTF, KISHI, WTF. I swear this manga is goin to turn into a 'create your own adventure' book.
10. DGM Manga: TYKKI! =DDDD I love him so. Road is as cute and vile as ever. I lol'd at Allen and Kanda fighting/sparring. So much <3 for Komui, who I must say was looking rather hot in the last few chapters. I LOVE TRAGEDY AND ANGST.
11. xxxHolic Manga: Watanuki looks better with out his glasses. HE'S SUCH A HOUSEWIFE. Love Dou/Wata. <3333 Though I have a theory about his connection to Syaoran and Sakura (and Clow). Aside from them all being CLAMP =P

So, any anime recs for this summer season? I'm looking for something new to pick up.